You lost your mind because of him, Lolo.” But it’s because of him you’re… Everything happened because of him. I sit up straight, clutching the phone to my ear, dread prickling the nape of my neck. I can’t believe that my daughter would lose her mind over a boy. And all because of a boy? I still can’t believe it. “I want you home too, but you need to be there. Then, Mom was going to take some time off from the store and we were going to do something fun together before my college started. I was going to spend my summer working at the bookstore like I always do. In fact, I was going to stay home while attending college. It might not sound like much but I’ve never lived apart from my mother. It was a one-time thing and…” I look up at the ceiling. Everything that I can possibly do to make it easier,” she whispers. “I’m just trying to do everything I can, honey. That she doesn’t trust me when I say I don’t need to be here. Yeah, everything is happening because of my fucking thoughts, isn’t it?

I grit my teeth as tears spring in my eyes. I read it in this magazine that it’s supposed to bring calmness. “I’m, uh, painting your room light yellow. “So, I…” my mom begins and I sit up straight, eager to hear her talk. There’s silence and I’m dreading that this will be the end of our conversation. “They’re treating me well,” I say, finally. No matter how mad I am at her for sending me here. I can’t burden her any more than I already have. Day by day, I’m losing my leftover sanity. I wanna tell my mom that they keep me chained to my bed, give me electric shocks. I wanna say that they are evil, all of them. “How’re things for you? Are they… are they treating you well?” I don’t know if I’ll ever trust her again.

I don’t know if she’ll ever trust me again.

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